Crystaline Us

2008-05-30T02:08:00.002+08:00

i'm afraid and tired at the same time.
many a times i feel like giving up.
but i was always pulled back,
and then i'd hang on until the next time comes.
it just keeps repeating itself like a cycle.
it's tormenting.
how long do i have to endure all these.
i'm really tired.

2008-05-15T18:08:00.003+08:00

so much things happen
schoolwork and hm
schoolwork's just enough to kill
and what dad told me really affected me greatly
but what can i do.
i'm sad. real sad and worried
i really don't wish for tt to happen. pls
i'm tired of crying
it's so stress

'violet'

2008-04-18T07:33:00.001+08:00

i wish to know yet at the same time i dont. i know it sounds contradicting.
aiyahh dont know larhh this is damn irritating.
i can only say i hate myself for being so.
it's my problem and i hate this shit hell lot.
enough is enough larh tanweikhim.
can you just disappear for goodness sake.

i shant go further.
i dont wish to invite unnecessary troubles.
be it hatred or spoilage or whatever.
so dont bother delving me.

hell off.

khim

2008-03-15T02:08:00.003+08:00

the thought of you makes me want to cry badly i swear.
but you're gone. like forever.
no way back to then.
had i treasure it, there'd have been no regrets.

grandfather.withheld.
khimwenni in doubles i'll remember.
egg rolls i'll remember.

hmmm but i dont like egg rolls -.-
used to like lahh
hahah

2008-03-15T01:50:00.003+08:00

it's nolonger how it wasusedtobe.
nomore muchofapain.
nomore heartbrokencries.
i've managedto disciplinemyself.
tobe what iamlike now.
butis this right.
iknow im such adisappointment.
iapologise forbeing so.

2008-03-02T00:24:00.002+08:00

who would have thought of that.

so what now?

2008-02-29T15:57:00.002+08:00

this is not the first time. and i'm freaking not liking this okay.
this is normal for us.
you people dont know anything. so just freaking shut the hell up.
not your business what. care so much. comment so much.
like for goodness sake lah. care as if you guys arent doing so yourselves.
dare say you guys are doing better than i do?
ask yourselves lah k. we are different for goodness sake. so much different.
at least mine is one that doesnt cause any pain or tears.
i know my limits. not as if i dont.
so just freaking freak off.
i'm still not disliking you guys yet. cos i know you guys arent bad.
just that sometimes think before you people say anything.
cos sometimes words do hurt others even without you knowing.

2008-02-08T22:53:00.000+08:00

it's spoilt. spoiler.
perhaps it's all one-sided.
my crazy thinkings.
fine. then i shall spoil it too.

anyway, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR ALL!! =D

2008-01-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY,

FAIZ!

2008-01-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

我真的累了.

i wish...for everything to end.

2007-12-31T21:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY

2-0-0-8

No, your eyes are not playing a trick on you.

This is indeed CAROLINE.

MY GREETINGS ARE HUMUNGUS AND A TAD EARLY.

2007-12-25T03:49:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS MO's!! ♥

BEST WISHES FROM KHIMMMM!!! =D

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^.^

2007-12-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

tired, fear, at lost. with happiness within. how peculiar.
overcome shall be it. time is all.
gaiety shall be the ultimate winner.
arrival anticipated.

2007-12-15T14:45:00.000+08:00

term test's over.
start of amic.
how will my 'holiday' be like?
nvm. shall enjoy as much as possible.
b4 e start of a new term and b4 e start of 2 more PBLs.

this is bad. i'm beginning 2 don like so many ppl.
increasingly.
wat's wrong? me? or them?
mood swings easily too.
juz someone or something will easily affect my mood 4 e whole day.
this is real bad. haiz...

ah...elective. muz be prepared 4 another lonely sem le.

oh yah. christmas's coming.
shall start looking 4 present le. haha
hope it will be a joyous day. : )

alrite. off 2 enjoy my holiday le. hahaha.

-Aili

2007-12-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 CAROLINE!~

it's ur 18th (or u claimed - 21st) BIRTHDAY!
may all ur wishes come true.
stay happy and may u have a wonderful yr ahead.
rmb 2 miss me too.
haha.

well, don be sad huh. hahaha.

-Aili

2007-12-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

what the.. just get me out of all these sh*t can.
damn frustrating, so annoying. no peace at all sia.
just freak off and nobody gets hurt. all shall have peace.
one shall be responsible for one's own actions.
so just freak off.

that's absolute absurdity.
what nonsense.

arghh

aili.. i also fan arh.. sighh

=(

2007-12-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

HATE IT HATE IT!!!

when have my sch life became so miserable.
my only wish now is tt sem 2.2 will FLY.
i mean really fly. juz let this miserable time pass ASAP!
i'm exploding soon.
i'm going mad.
FAN arh!!!
y so much grp work in this sem.
and y e members.
super sad-ed.

now i truly realise e importance of having close and gd frens with u.
miss them much.

praying 4 a better yr ahead.
pls. be more kind 2 me.

2007-11-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

hahaha...THANKS KHIM!!! :)

and THANKS 2 everyone who wished me.

love u guys. : )

-b'day gal.

2007-11-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY AILI!!! (:

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you-u
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!
(help me sing it to yourself!)

hahahahah
psps forgot to bring your bday present..
pass it to you tmr k?? (: (:

hope you've enjoyed the day!! (:

SHENG RI KUAI LE!

khimkhim(:

2007-11-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

sometimes it does come across my mind that somehow i dont really know what you're thinking.
sometimes i'd think that i dont understand you at all.
but sometimes it's rather on the contrary.
i find we do click.
that all our thoughts harmonize.
well perhaps that's quite a customary thing.
well well...
just a random thought.

2007-11-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

this blog is becoming more and more like my blog. lol.

alrite. this wk was fine. due to TPrawks and CCN day, many lessons were cancelled.
CCN day was enjoyable.
guppies and fighting fishes.
although e weather was hot
it's juz fun spending time with AF23 de ppl. much much more better than TF.
there won't be any more class event shortly le bah..tt's quite sad actually. haha.

it's amic and abc time now. haiz...

and it's gracecia's birthday too!
we actually 4got abt the lighter. lol.
sorry arh. no candle 4 u 2 blow. :P
finally, happy 19th b'day. : )

-Aili

2007-11-11T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ahey!
another wk passed.

so went haw par villa 4 CIP on sat.
24 of us was 'late' tgt. (as in past 930)
whole class reach tgt. united huh. lol
grouped with juan, carol, gracecia, faiz, pg, aaron and ivan
got 6 'cute little' children
5 aged 10 and 1 aged 11. -.- little huh?
others r getting 5yrs old or not over 10. yyy?
but in some ways, they r cute lah. (don ask wat ways. cuz i don quite rmb one. hahaha)
wasn't quite welcomed @ e start. but it got better towards e end.
treasure hunt was tiring. those sickening stn masters made us went e extra miles
and i've got mild sun burn even though it wasn't tt sunny.
went vivo exhaustedly after tt.
but overall can say is quite enjoyable lah.

alrite, next class event: CCN day.

and thankx 2 this kind srjc guy who sheltered me to e bus stop on tt rainy tuesday. kind ppl still survives. hahaha.

-Aili

2007-11-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

wahhh... the blog's like so dead... like only aili blogging. LOL

nvm i shall post then..

firstly i'd like to wish liwei

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

hahah

haix sian.. no money means nothing new lor..

wanna buy one also cannot lor..

then different lor..

no longer the same anymore lor..

hahahahah

nah jk la. think i'm alr quite contented with what i have now.

(notice the word, "quite" hahahah)

just that you know? sometimes.. there're bound to be temptations. LOL

but nvm nvm.. i shall have no choice but to resign to my pathetic life.

sob sob..

hmmm.. there was really quite an obvious change before and after.

brightened after, from what i can see.

didnt know what and how to react, remained as cool as i can, as myself as i can.

i didnt gave myself away, did i?

just some temporary thoughts.

will fade soon i suppose.

not to worry.

i hope.

2007-11-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

2nd wk of sch ended.

summary of e 2nd wk of sch: stressed, tired.

even though it's juz e 2nd wk.

projects, PBL, meetings and long sch hrs with little breaks.

all this r killing e biomole students.

somemore class changed. no longer with ppl i'm used 2 working with.

Amic still ok. got ppl i worked with b4 and e others r quite easy 2 get along.

ABC. none. tt's so pathetic.

only if we did not have 2 change class...haiz.

tut and labs w/o them r bored. : (

perhaps i juz need time 2 adapt bah.

however, had a happy ending 4 this wk. : )

meet up with mai!!! haha.

went bugis. had dinner with mai, carol, gracecia and faiz @ SIAM kitchen.

had a great time with mai, carol and gracecia after tt.

chit chat, gossips, jokes, photo taking, ice cream, photographer who can cause blindness, tt spiderman and doraemon. hahaha. juz fun.

more of this and less of sch pls. haha.

holiday on thurs! YEAH! haha. one hated day of e wk gone.

and CIP on next sat. anticipating. haha. cuz it's with AF23! not TF.

alrite. busy wkend ahead. research and my cds. jiayou lah. : )

-Aili

2007-10-28T19:15:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i just got to realize i'm actually a loner. alone. friends.. yup i do have them. but somehow i just have this feeling that i'm still alone. sad huh. hmm.. i'm always reminded of unhappy things. picturing unhappy scenes in my mind although it did not really happen in real life. am i being paranoid? have i been thinking too much all along? have i been worrying in vain all along? or am i all correct. that such unhappy stuff do happen. that all the things i've been thinking and worrying do or will come true. i dont know. all i know is, i'm a loner. does my existance really matter? does it actually has the slightest impact on ppls' lives? well.. i dont know. but at least some have ppl there to be with them, ppl who would care for them and think of them always. me? hmm.. some times perhaps, but not all times i guess. perhaps i should already be contented. well at least for some times, ppl would think of me, care for me.

2007-10-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

well well. holiday's ending in a few more days.
spent e whole holiday slacking.

got e new timetable and sadly, i'm separated frm carol & gracecia :(
tt's real sad k. how will e new sem be w/o them.
muz rmb me k. hahaha.
y change class!!! haiz...
but fortunately, got faiz same class as me. identical timetable. same cds too. haha...
tot yr2.2 will be a bit more slack. BUT. not at all. -.-
it's all fate.

am going 2 fulfil one of e 'things 2 do' 4 this holiday. going renci on sat. YEAH! haha.

" 爱丽公主! 最近怎麽了? 没有你的消息我好为你担心啊,
假如你收到我的sms请给我回信好嗎, uncle goh "

received this msg frm a renci patient. cuz i've always been msg-ing him. so worried tt all my msg wasn't delivered 2 him. feel like going straight down 2 renci @ tt moment. haha. anyway tt's so sweet of him rite. haha. sometimes his 'cheer up' msg-es juz come so nicely when i'm feeling down. make me feels tt i'll always have a fren.

bu kai xin.bu kai xin.BU KAI XIN! ):
-Aili

2007-09-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

EVAN ALMIGHTY is nice! : )

enjoy.

2007-09-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

i'm missing my bro. : (
he hai wo don dare slp late now. lol.
cuz there's no one awake with me @ nite.

alrite. AF23 chalet's over. spent e only nite there playing mahjong. haha.
anyway, had fun lah. : )
went hm in e morning to slp. resulted in me not tired @ nite. but no choice, sis went 2 slp. so i had 2 slp too. haha.
lie down on e bed and started anyhow think.
tot of e my uncle.
e nite when hospital called.
e nite which i cried myself 2 slp.
e next day which i cried in sch.
e moment when i saw his photo on tt table during his funeral.
haiz...

i've got no appetite after returning frm e chalet.
hungry. but no appetite. haha.
need 2 find job arh. lazy sia. finding job alone is sian de. lol.
but wat choice do i have. will buy newspaper soon bah. haha.

-Aili

2007-09-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

here's it..

why are her hopes she harboured for years always dashed
when it seems to light up a little.
why is she always being shut down whenever she tries.
a wish planted way back she had always wanted to come true.
each time she tried yet what she got in return was nothing but disappointment.
each time she wanted to give up. but hung on.
how long more could she hold on?
perhaps this wish will never come true.
perhaps she should just give it up.
ten years down the road she might be forgotten.
but there's one thing she knows for sure.
this special one will never be forgotten and will be kept with her till her last breath.
a silent bliss she would take with her.

she's still waiting..
she just couldnt let go..

a wish kept and not shared.

a month's time

2007-09-12T00:05:00.000+08:00

alrite. tml is e day.

1. result day

2. bro's enlistment.

can say it's a sad day 4 me bah.
1st, results. nth much 2 say. let's juz wait.

2nd, my bro is getting enlisted. will miss him bah. tt's 4 sure. haha.
whole thing gonna last for 4hrs. was shocked 2 noe e duration. haha. let's juz hope it's interesting.
my house gonna have a army boy! hahaha. so exciting. lol.
well, all e best and tc, bro. : )

wat has 2 come will come.
all we can do is...wait.
stop thinking too much. get real, gal.

-Aili

2007-09-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

was i paranoid or was i right.
i sensed reluctance in those words.
perhaps i expected too much.
i always thought a different thing.
perhaps all along i was alone.
with no accompany.
and this will be forever without a doubt.

2007-08-31T20:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(FYI: there's 18 qns marks. lol)

hope u like e appetizer we chose with LOVE and CARE. hahaha.

ur beloved,
Aili :P

2007-08-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

argh!!!
nth's getting in
no mood!
it's killing me man.
feel so much like giving up.
can i juz give up everything and leave?

i know i don wish to.
pls. don make me lost interest.

2007-08-25T23:53:00.000+08:00

wah.. damn it. i'm damn pissed now..
freak sia.. got scolded for nothing.. like my fault sia.. gth la. damn..
i'm not a tool for you ppl to rant at or show attitude at k. damn
i dont owe you ppl a living ok.. freak
sharks.. hell.. whatever la k.
not happy treat me as a tool to throw temper at. happy treat me like a god. fake samaritans.
idiots.
anyway.. i wont fight back.. i know i wont win. you ppl are too strong for me. you win. happy?
arggggghhhhhhhhhhhh

ok. i cried today. twice.. freak.
first was due to stress. facing the notes and stuff..
dont wish to mention the second one.

arghhh hell hell hell..

2007-08-18T01:28:00.000+08:00

ok. i'm pissed. whatever
not that i dont want. just that i have reasons. but do you know? were you even bothered to ask? apparently no.
my fault? ok fine. my fault then.
i'm damn pissed.
whatever. dont show me this attitude cos i hate that.

i cant do things. i only bring miseries upon others. i'm just another useless one.

2007-08-13T01:28:00.000+08:00

not that i dont trust anyone.
just that i dont have confidence in myself that's all.
not anyone else's fault.

2007-08-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

i'm bored.

it's national day and i'm @ hm with my this sickening troat. how happy can tt be.

sis going out. 2 watch ndp @ marina (w/o tix) i think.

dad went out. he have activity de loh. even my dad also have more life than me. haha.

mum's @ hm rotting with me. hai hao still got ppl pei wo. lol. otherwise jiu only my dearest lappie and notes with me le.

oh yah. there was fireworks @ my place here @ ard 12midnite. but i only heard e sound and saw e smoke. -.-

ah. bored bored bored bored.

so disappointed. no nicholas teo de tickets 4 us. : (

p.s.: let's watch secret next wk. k? : )

HAPPY 42nd BIRTHDAY S'PORE!

-Aili

2007-08-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!

=)

-Aili.

2007-08-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

went lavender today. hoping to see someone there. though deep down i knew that this possibility would be almost a zero percent. and true enough, it was a flat zero. scanned and searched through the crowd but no familiar faces were seen. took bus 2 from there and headed to bugis. walked around. went parkway, walked again. then to the last venue, the beach, later in the day. settled myself down at a bench, viewed the sea and sky till night falls. thoughts went through my mind. but to no conclusion afterall. headed home after which.

lonely.

2007-08-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

i'm not fine. seriously isn't

all this are killing me.

i'm tired.

who to blame: me

i will bear all e consequences myself.

perhaps here isn't where i should be.

i shall and will be fine.

2007-07-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

I'M HAVING A CRAVING 4 THIS!

FEN YUAN TOU HUA. hahaha...

ARGH! i'm missing those days! Days in RC. my happiest moments. such a pity, time doesn't turn back. nv will it. nth lasts 4ever. tt's e facts of life.

i'm feeling so bad. i haven been going renci 4 a long time. when promises were made. haiz...

-Aili

2007-07-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

no peace at home.

2007-07-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

ahhhh... i miss boy boy!! hahaha. aili's boy boy. lol
he's super cute la.. lol
wonder if he still remembers me.
haha. dont think so i guess.. lol
haix..
i'm so stressed and tired.
i badly need a rest.
sian. so many projects. what the hell.
cannot cope sia.
can die lor.
just kill me man!
so many stuff to do. so many things to worry about. haix.
sometimes i really feel like giving up. give up on my studies. quit school.
mr cheung (paul) told us today that a girl by the name michelle if i'm not wrong, quitted school. haix.
think in the months to come more and more ppl will give up and quit school.
work loads are getting heavier and heavier. i dunno how long i can still take it.
haix. kinda regretted choosing this course.
sometimes i'd think i'm SO dumb. one day if there ever will be, my downfall will be due to my stupidity. haix

alright. just came here to complain.
hahah. complain's done.
got to go back to work now. haix. projects projects projects. sickening.
haix

oh.. also also.. happy birthday nicholas! and happy birthday in advance to jia hui!! =D

khim

2007-07-06T21:31:00.000+08:00

AHEY. so long nv blog le...

today was such a tiring day. due 2 some ridiculous de reasons. LOL. so it made me chu chou.
i went into a lift with an uncle. then he pressed 4th floor while me of cuz is 6th.

e door opened.

i stepped out.

then i heard this uncle calling out to me. "hey, haven reach. u haven reach."(in chinese)

then i looked ard. ok. it's e wrong floor. then e uncle went out i went in.
omg! tt's so embarrassing. i really wasn't in conscious state until e uncle call me. after i went back into e lift i was wondering ' wat's wrong with me. . .' lucky it wasn't a young guy. hahaha...

so i decided 2 take a nap on boyboy's mattress in e living room. he went 2 move my pillow all tt out. then came 2 'oie oie' (coax) me 2 slp. LOL. he still ask me "yao bu yao milk milk?" (wan milk milk anot) HAHAHA. so cute rite. love him so much. lol.

alrite, projects are coming up.

haiz...
-Aili

2007-07-01T01:38:00.000+08:00

hate HER so much.
big failure. useless. in all aspects.

2007-06-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

hmm.. looks like it has become a habit. no matter how angry or upset i am. i just cant show it..
to certain people i mean..
i'd still smile and smoke it through. i dont want to raise unhappiness. be it my friends or whoever.
i'd rather keep it to myself. hmm.. but sometimes i'll complain to my good friends. it relieves the pain in me a little you see.
alright.. shall end here. just a little disappointment felt. not that bad.
(or so i'd console myself)

2007-06-24T19:56:00.001+08:00

Hey hey

So long neva blog here. Anyways, i had to agree with Aili. 2 weeks of holiday is very short and boring. And i also spent my time slacking at home too. Sigh. The worst thing of all is, i didnt even do my assignments. Sigh. I havent touched my log book! Haiz.

Anywayz, juz now i worked alone. I realised that working alone is freakingly boring. Usually i worked with my bestie but he's overseas now. Vietnam to be exact. But its ok, its not that ive never worked alone before. So yar.

Im really not looking forward to tomorrow and weeks ahead. Sigh! But wat can i do to avoid it rite. Juz have to endure it. =)

-=Faiz=-

2007-06-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

yr2 term 1 term break is ENDING!!! 2 wks is indeed not long. haiz...back 2 sch and. . . . . . meet my doom. haha...

spent most of e time slacking @ hm...mostly in 1st week lah...2nd week jiu got things 2 do le. started going out and doing projects. and i've finished tt sickening log bk. hahaha...
and tt cds is so so so limited lah..haiz...none of wat i want.

my dad so wei da sia..haha...he went 2 pack my dinner 4 me then he called me and told me need 2 wait one hr but he say nvm he wait. wei da rite...even though it didn't really took one hr. haha...

alrite, nth 2 blog actually. hahaha...cuz my holiday wasn't @ all interesting. juz find this blog so died...lol.

last day of holiday: working.

cuz there's too much 'wat if...' there will always be regrets.
-Aili

2007-06-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

what the hell.. forever like that siah. damn it.
nothing counts when it is mentioned. hell
not even family ties.
if i ever dared i woundn't have relied on you. hell
whatever lah ok.. do whatever you want.
i have no say isn't it.
hell.

2007-06-12T12:08:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps.

MAI says she's free from thursday onwards. So let us make an outing on either thurs or friday okay?

Haha.

Bye Bye.

Carol-

2007-06-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

angry angry angry. ok maybe not THAT angry. a lil perhaps. nvm.
things will change. as long as i'm determined! haha
when are we going out? when are we going out? lol
i miss everybody already!! LOL especially mai!!
it's been so long since we've seen each other..
please meet up soon! all of us! haha (:

alright. i seriously think i'm so irritating these few days. hate this me.
found myself losing temper easily these few days.
dont know why. hmmm. perhaps one of the reason is the super hot and super humid weather. argh
and also maybe because of term tests. sighh. dont think i did well. might fail a few subjects. gosh
must really buck up next term.

love the mirror but am beginning to dislike what reflects in the mirror. gosh. think i'm becoming uglier. sharks.

WHERE

2007-06-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

SERIOUSLY.
THIS BLOG IS LIKE DEAD EY.

HMMM.
SERIOUSLY.
IS EVERYBODY BUSY?

SERIOUSLY.
WHEN ARE WE GOING TO GO OUT EY.

I MISS YOU TOO JIAHUI.
B&J ANYBODY?

Y

2007-06-08T23:06:00.000+08:00

8th day le.

8 days of coughing.

8 days of no cold drinks.

only myself 2 blame loh...who tell me can't resist e temptation of choc. hahaha..i'm like getting TB soon sia. lol.

term test's over. this term test is a total gone case. 3 out of e 6 are gone. and tt's e optimistic pt of view. haiz...although carol keep telling me term test isn't as impt as e sem exam. but i juz can't help feeling disheartened. sometimes i do wonder wat am i doing in this course. but if not here, where can i go?

alrite. let's try 2 enjoy my term break 1st. but there's things 2 be done. PCT logbk, bchem project, etc. & i wan go shopping (many things 2 buy and it's s'pore sales!!!), watch movie, go renci, and rc (if they do have trainings in e holidays). 2wks appear 2 be so short.

going work on sun. and one pathetic thing. my last mth pay was like $29. -.- my dad told me 2 go teach tuition after i told him abt carol. hahaha. but guess i will stick 2 where i am bah. lazy find job le. haha..and it's actually not bad 2 work there lah.

i tou pai-ed him. LOL.

my fren says it shows e attitude of poly students. haha.

and carol have a story 4 these pics. haha..

alrite, let's have an outing soon, e 8 MOs. : )

AND. CONGRATS 2 MAI!!! : )

-Aili

2007-06-03T21:34:00.001+08:00

Pssssst.
I Got Into NAFA.
Wooohooo.
(:

2007-06-01T19:21:00.000+08:00

I 'pua toh' first thing in the morning today and that's probably the most memorable thing that had happened in a long long while. 'Or qi' already~. Imagine tomorrow I wake up finding my leg looking like an overstuffed dumpling.

Muahahaha~~~ What a sight.

OKAY. RANDOM POST.

NEXT WEEK IS GOOD - BECOS' MOST OF THE DAYS END AFTER AN HOUR. (^^.)

WOO~~

2007-06-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

alrite. it's fri and i'm here 2 blog again..haha...

today was quite a nice day 4 me. except 4 e fact tt i'm not feeling very well. my day started off nice. e minute i reached e bus stop, 27A came. lots of empty seats. then when i reach tampines de bus stop 4 transfer bus, TP shuttle bus came in a short while. lots of empty seats too. haha...so i reached sch early even though i left @ only 7:15am. in sch time was ok. felt strengthless and drowsy. cuz of tt sickening disgusting yucky cough syrup. heading hm tt time, 15 and 27 came quite soon. with seats too. hahaha...it's so nice rite. lol. once in a blue moon thing loh. was still worrying abt having 2 squeeze in e bus. this make me wonder is my luck changing 4 e better. haha.

and i'm feeling much better le. left cough and abit of sore throat only. and my method of seeing am i having fever anot is to see if my eyes r tired. lol. so i reckon i'm not having any fever le. haha. 2 those who have cared. thankx. : ) and i've wasted e whole thursday..have 2 chiong le! sian.

lots of ppl r falling sick. tc arh everyone. : )
and i haven't watch pirates. sian...

juz as i've said, i was stuck @ e blog add. haha..anyone have any idea can suggest 2 me ya. haha.

having so much doubts in my life
-Aili

2007-05-31T23:27:00.000+08:00

didnt went home straight.. walked around my neighbourhood for a while.. alone. thoughts went through my mind. couldnt get what went wrong exactly earlier. looked around, looked up into the sky. full moon was right up there. with a bright glowing star by its side.. the sight was pretty. for a moment, it cheered me up a little. but it didnt last long.

thought of quite a number of things while strolling..
friends who were once so close, drifted apart.. saw each other yet exchanged no words, just smiles.
will friends at present last forever?
family in trouble yet there's nothing i can do to help.
sisters as usual give me headaches, could it be my lack of discipline and concern for them that leads them to who they are now?
he's troubled yet i cant read his mind.
term tests are coming and i am not at all prepared.

i wonder. will i ever smile again.. even if i do, would it be real? would it really reflects what my true feelings are.

what a failure am i. i sucked in every aspect. be it a friend, daughter, sister or her.

my everyday is a mess. hell

2007-05-31T17:50:00.000+08:00

i know i should be studying but as usual well i'm not studying. i feel dicouraged after i read PCT notes because i dont understand any shit. sigh sigh sigh
anyway i decided to get my own blog (out of boredom) and i'm still thinking about my blog name.anyway..today is a very hot day and there's this someone who keeps on irritating the shit out of me. so so irritating (no no he's not jeffrey)
i miss my brother so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Gracecia

2007-05-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

it's been 5 years and 7 months babe. thats a freaking long timeee.

you know i've been feeling irritated by someone.only lately okay. and its really bad because she's my friend and i like her.buttt i dont know why i feel this way.is it my problem or hers?i dont know.haha

Gracecia

2007-05-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

i wonder how many of you actually felt this way.
if you message someone and the person replies without symbols such as full-stop, comma, exclamation, question mark, etc. would you feel that person is pretty rude? or he or she doesnt really care at all.
(no offence here. just feel like voicing it out.)
well.. personally i feel so. i would think that this person dont feel like talking to you or something.
haix. and sometimes it could really dampen your whole day. well.. esp when those ppl are the ones you care alot about. and they do this to you.

but.. sometimes such persons cant be blamed. cos they may have the habit of not putting any symbols, and that's their style. but still.. i feel weird.

but what really is the issue here is that when those people who dont usually do this do this. uh-huh! then there must be a problem. but it's really hard to understand the situation. you wont know why. sighs. humans are really complicated creatures.

a random pose by a random one.

2007-05-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

wat a boring and tiring week it was. fri was e worst day. we were actually rushing 4 quiz. one after another. with only 2hr 45mins of slp, i survived e day. wasn't really tired during lesson time. start 2 feel sleepy only on e way hm. e less u slp e less sleepy u will be. tts y i can survive with so little slp for yrs. haha...

going work tml. last working day b4 term test bah. and term test is like two wks later!!! time flies. one term is ending soon. wat am i going 2 do during term break? work thru out? not possible. hahaha. i wan go ren ci! shld be thinking abt term test instead of term break bah. haha. alrite, nth's gonna stop me frm meeting my juniors 4 lunch next week.haha..unless there's smth more impt. oh yah. news says e contact lense solution have problem again. and it's always e brand i'm using.

and ppl. blog leh. u guys r making me appear 2 be such a frequent blogger. haha...

drained.
-Aili

2007-05-23T00:45:00.000+08:00

arhh.. hell. think i'm gonna die from all these soon.
so many things to do sia. yet so little time.
sian.
how i wish i could just fall sick so i can sleep a full whole day through.
i need a break badly. havent been sleeping well.
guess thats the reason why i cant pay attention during lectures.
half-slept through almost all lectures. or rather all...
missing out so much. sian.

khim

2007-05-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

i'm an unlucky person bah...no matter how many times i told myself i won't be tt unlucky. luck does come to me. maybe not today or tml but eventually it will. however lots of things had proven me wrong. juz as i tot things was doing well, something discouraging will always take place. e most disappointing one is my bro. haiz...perhaps he will nv noe how we feel bah. my parents can look like nth had taken place. but i can't. it's not possible 4 me. additional 2 this, more things r coming...watever it is...i got stm ya. : )

alrite, let's put aside all those emotional stuff. my family and i had sushi 4 dinner. : ) home-made sushi. haha...of cuz it isn't up 2 e standard. but wat matter most of this sushi making session is tt it does strengthen family bond. and i like this kind of stuff. : ) and we went 2 GIANT @ tampines in e morning. long time nv go shopping 4 grocery with mum and dad le. today can be considered as my family day bah. haha.

here's e picture. lol.

this boy was trying 2 say 'blood'. hahaha.

ok. got 2 do my csas now. which is on tue!!! haha...bye everyone. : )

-Aili

2007-05-20T01:09:00.000+08:00

ok. today's so not my day. everything's freakingly pissing me off today.
aunt came over to my house in the morning. as you know, two mothers together, there'll definitely be no peace. nag and nag and nag. complains and complains and complains. loud, louder and even louder. i woke up cos it was too loud. cant go back to sleep. then my dad came back. three adults this time round. gosh..

was doing my fpath stuff. and the stupid laptop's so idiotically slow. and it really pissed me.

then my sister, kept pestering me, irritating me while i was doing my work. mum, aunt and dad kept raising their voices over some trivial matters. you know, when one is really angry about something and other things kept coming by, it can really get very irritating.

come to think of it, i noticed i raised my voice for quite a number of times.. at my sis, my mum, at everybody. something i'd never done before, esp to my mum. and now i feel so bad. didnt meant to do that. i'm sorry.

went over to my grandma's house in the late afternn. that guy, my uncle, said something nasty to my sister. i shouted at him. was really angry cos it was really nasty. think what i did kinda freaked everyone who was there out. cos i seldom shout at anyone. gosh. but i'll never regret for shouting at him. he deserved it. you'll never forgive him for what he said really.. and worse of all, he's not even apologetic for saying it. i walked out of the house after that. i needed a breather badly. walked around, went to the library. then back to my grandma's house when i felt better.

i really felt i was at the lowest point of my life. almost cried for all that happened. as i walked alone earlier, i wished a car could just run me over as i crossed the road and end my life there. that was a foolish thought i know. but it really did came across my mind. haix

khim

2007-05-17T21:38:00.000+08:00

2007-05-17T20:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! KHIM!

hope u did enjoyed e birthday surprise. : )

alrite, i have 2 do my stuff le. lazy argh! AILI! JIAYOU!!! hahaha.

-Aili

2007-05-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

smth funny happened today. main lead was Huang Yan. and e supporting lead was Alfred. hahaha. u noe huang yan will wear this mic during lab. then e mic was hooked onto alfred lab coat unknowingly. so alfred continued walking like nth had happened. and huang yan was like chasing after him..hahahaha..tt scene was so funny.

alrite, i've got quite alot of things 2 do.
1. my FPATH
2. PCT log book.
3. bchem lab report
4. bchem tut ws
5. CSAS research
6. copy my AIMM notes. . .
7. buy my hp case
8. buy pen and maybe a new file.
9. finish my '12 steps to better memory' bk.

my FPATH grp is weird. we will nv have meeting. haha...cuz everyone in my grp is so busy lah. so can't blame me if i don noe e guy's name. lol. so we will always pair up and do a part. even between pairs there's no way 2 meet up. so we r so high-tech can. online de leh...lol.

alrite...tests and quizzes r coming in. and csas is next tue. tt's fast k. haiz...

* thankx angel : ) *

-Aili

2007-05-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! can blog already! woohoo!! thanks alot aili!! =D
mann.. i miss blogging here. LOL
ok.. let's talk bout yesterday. took back our aimm tut quiz.
damn. i got 7 out of 15. almost cried. was damn sad.. first test and i failed.
and when i got home, the house was in a mess, mum was nagging. had tut quiz the next day.
so.. i went out and studied initially alone at the library near my house.
was cheered up at the end of the day. thanks to his accompany. (:
oh and, thanks alot wei juan! for sending me a msg that really cheered me up too. (:

oh great. had aap tut quiz today. damn. i studied the wrong topic!! so.. bound to fail it. know like nothing can?? wrote nonsense just to fill up the blanks to make everyth on the whole seemed nicer, as though i knew how to do.

went jogging at bedok reservoir today. ran for like 2.0km non-stop for 14 mins and then stopped when i cant take it finally. nvm. shall try again next time. hahah. will do better i hope. (:

ok.. yay!! so happy.. 2 more days and i'm 18!! yay!! hahaha

oh dear. results for ppl who are in for modern dance will be up tmr on the notice board. gosh. i'm scared. hope i can get in..

alright. shall end here. (:

take care people!

2007-05-14T09:17:00.000+08:00

CUT-ED HAIR.HEH.
WHICH MAKES MY FACE LOOK ROUNDER.
PFFFT..

UOH.
HAPPY BELATED MOMMA DAY !
GIVE MY MOTHER NOTHING.
DUNNO WAHT TO GIF LARH.
HMMM...
OK. I THINK TAHTS IT.
:P

2007-05-13T22:43:00.000+08:00

alrite, i'm back : )
i juz need somewhere 2 write ya. so juz read and 4get or don even bother 2 read. it's nth nice.

got depressed once again. things happened. things tt saddened me. things tt made me feel inferior again. things tt made me lost confident. u guys shld noe one of e thing. but there's this matter, which i totally couldn't accept.
it's my bro. he did smth which i seriously couldn't accept. he did told me b4. but i didn't took it 2 heart. but since tt day...i saw it with my eyes. i was utterly dissapointed. sad. real sad. and angry. and on tt day which e other thing happened, i cried. don't wish 4 history 2 repeat. he did witness tt history too. but he's juz so insensible. there's really nth i could do. if i talk 2 him abt tt, i might cry 4 smth he feel tt it was nth. he's a nice bro i muz admit. he does buy things 4 us occassionally. and he was e 2nd guy who carried my bag 4 me. 1st was my dad. it might be nth 2 u ppl, but this act of his did touched me. pls realise it urself and stop. pls.

i will smile. @ least i will try. but if i failed 2, pls pardon me. i didn't meant to.

-aili

2007-05-13T15:40:00.000+08:00

can blog le!!! haha.

do this:

1. click on tools>internet options (which is on e top of e explorer window.)
2. then click on the connectivity tab
3. click on LAN settings button
4. check the "Use a proxy server..."
5. click on 'advanced'
6. Under HTTP type, input "proxy.singnet.com.sg" for proxy address and "8080" for port
8. Click on "OK" button 3 times to confirm changes

long time no news de
AILI.

2007-05-12T00:10:00.000+08:00

these are just some random photos.haha it's like 1 year agooo.

WARAO eh.so actually everybody noticed it? wthman. i feel so stupid now. oh and everyone.update pleasee.

Gracecia

2007-05-10T07:13:00.000+08:00

0713AM.
WHO THE HELL BLOGG AT THIS HOUR,WHEN THERES NO SKOOL?
ONLY MAISHARAH.

EYYY.
SO LONG NEVER BLOGG HERE.
SO LONG NEVER C U ALL.
SO LONG NEVER GO OUT WITH YOU ALL.
DIDNT GO JALAN WITH KHIM N AILI WHEN THEY WERE LIKE SOOO NEAR TO MY HOUSE TAHT DAY.
STOOPID CRAMS.
AND YOU ALL COMING DOWN TO JURONG EAST IS LIKE VERRY RARE.
OR NEVER AT ALL.NYEHAHA.
OK.MAYBE EXCEPT AH JUAN LARH.

SO WHEN ARE YOU GUYZ COMING DOWN AGAIN?HEHZ.
ARE YOU GUYS HAVING TEST ALREADY?
IM MISSING A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENING AT TP EY?
OK. DEFINITELY IM NOT MISSING MY EX-SCANDAL:PAUL LARH.HURHUR.
UOH. YOU THINK HE WILL EVER READ THIS BLOGG?
NAAAAAAAAH ~

OK.
SO IM NOT WORKIN ANYMORE.
JUST WAITIN FOR NAFA TO TELL ME IF I GET IN THE SKOOL OR NOT.
DID THE TEST ALREADY TAHT DAY.
WAS PRETTY SHITTY FOR THE SECOND PAPER.
BUT I'LL JUST HAVE TO PRAY HARD NOW.
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT NAFA.

LIFE NOW IS LIKE SOOO effing BORING LARH.
OBVIOUSLY WORST THAN SKOOL LIFE.
NOTHING NEW ENTER THE BRAIN.
MOST OF THE TIMES YOU FEEL EMPTY.[IM NOT EMO-ING]
YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU ARE AT SKOOL, YOU HAVE CRUSHES SO SKOOL LIFE WONT BE TAHT BORING.
BUT NOW IM MOSTLY AT HOME,
EVERYONE IS LIKE WORKING AND SKOOLING.
ONLY YOU AND YOUR COMPUTER AND FOOD AND WEIGHING SCALE.
NO CRUSHES.

UOH.TALKING ABOUT CRUSHES, I STILL HAVEN MEET MY P3 FRIEND.
IM STILL THINKING ABOU HIM LA OK.
I THINK THERES A REASON WHY I THINK ABOUT TAHT FRIEND EVERYDAY SINCE 15FEB07.
SO TAHT I WONT DIE OF BOREDOM.
AT LEAST GOT HIM TO THINK ABOUT.HEHZ.
I JUST WANT TO GET TO KNOW HIM AGAIN, IS TAHT WRONG?
MAYBE IM HOPING TOO MUCH EY?
HE'LL NEVER REMEMBER WHO IS MAISHARAH.
SUDDENLY I REMEMBERED TAHT WE WERENT TAHT CLOSE.
SO, WHY THE HELL AM I THINKING ABOUT TAHT STOOPID FRIEND.

I DONT WANT TO BE CRUSHING ON ANYBODY ALSO.
FOR WAHT IF ITS ALWAYS HEART-BREAKING.
OKOK.
SHUTTUP ALREADY.
IMBORED DOING THE SAME ROUTIN EVERYDAY.
TAHTS ALL.HEHZ.

SO. GO OUT SOON?

2007-05-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

i realised i already make aili angry/sad twice.haha shit.i'm so bad. sorry aili :(
hm i'm suppose to study biochem now because i have to do the tutorial.but yeah you all know la. i already studied the 1st chapter btw.haha but i guess thats the easiest chapter of the lot so it doesnt count!so anyway i went to parkway again,haha with my grandparents. i really want to buy the nike shoes but they dont have my size la damn sadd.
i've been so grumpy towards jeffrey these days.haha but its okay because he's used to it.
i havent do log book because its very stupid.just ask caroline.
i havent been playing maple :( sad sad sad
i'm listening to chinese emo songs.haha cannot stand it.i'm really very bored and sleepy but i won't sleep before i at least read biochem chapter2.
hmm.going to watch bridge to terabithia on saturday haha i studied that book for literature in sec 1 leh! and i got an A for it.haha
weikhim called me just now and she laughed at me because i spoke in chinese to my godmother! what is this weikhim!
and lately i have been thinking about B again.what is this man. it's weird really. it's like i know i dont really like him.but i also think i like him.haha that makes to sense like totally.i'm not saying i dont like jeffrey anymore but well . this is very hard to say.
so i saw this girl waiting for someone to fetch her.so her car came and i thought it's her brother who's fetching her.then she went into the car and they kissed.walao eh.lucky shit man her bf got car.!i mean she's young.reallyyy.
school's being such a bitch lately.i'm always sleepy whenever Mr Kok opens his mouth. my head fell down like 3 times in 45 minutes(i tried to act cool whenever my head fell but well aili always noticed). he's my sleeeping pill.oh Mr Quek also. Huang Yan also. aiyah everbody la seriously.
hmm.what else okay thats it i guess.

Gracecia

2007-05-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

WAH LAO EH. I'M SO PISSED AT FPATH.

I THOUGHT WE DECIDED ON HAEMOTOLOGY ON CASE 3? WHY DID IT BECOME CYTOGENETICS FOR GOODNESS SAKE?! AND WHY WASN'T I INFORMED ABOUT THE CHANGE? AND IF I HADN'T BOTHER TO DOWNLOAD I'M STILL GOING TO BE IN THE DARK!

THIS IS JUST CRAP.

TOTAL CRAP.

WHAT FOR DISCUSS WHEN YOU'RE STILL GOING TO DO IT YOUR WAY?

I'M NOT ANGRY AT THE LOSS OF THE 10 MARKS IF ITS WRONG (I'LL STILL BE PISSED EVEN IF ITS CORRECT).

I'M JUST VERY PISSED AT THE LACK OF RESPECT BETWEEN THE GROUP MEMBERS.

I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS THIS MANZ... TOTALLY SHITTY.

2007-05-07T20:18:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i did that.
my expression shows it all man.
i hope nobody noticed anything just now.
it will be bad if anybody noticed it.shit why am i so dumb?

Gracecia

2007-05-06T02:22:00.000+08:00

i watched zhi zhu ren 3 today!hahahaa
it was nice except for the part when everyone clapped when spiderman came.it was damn extra haha.and the newscaster(how to spell) too.
but i like it still. i like harry la walao he's so cute i cant stand it!! Ronaldo is damn hot too. (Link?) haha no link.
ok thats it.

Gracecia

2007-05-03T23:59:00.000+08:00

AHEY! i'm bored i'm bored!!! haha. today's thurs and tml's fri. e 2nd wk of yr2 is ending soon. lessons r still not going according 2 e timetable. long long breaks popping out of nowhere. i don mind those breaks actually...hahaha. tml's lesson only 3hrs and it starts @ 2pm which is e laziest moment of humans. haha.

got 2 noe some of e classmates le. especially those whose register is juz a little bit b4 me. till now, we r working tgt 4 e FPATH and PCT lab. and there might be more 2 come. sch's boring. quizzes r coming in.

SATURDAY IS COMING!!! muahaha. so happy. noe y? guess bah. lol.

pro table tennis players. lol.

-Aili

2007-05-03T10:07:00.000+08:00

Sorry humans, not sure why I'm feeling this way.
My apologies to all..
Ever since I joined the club, my life seems to be fully devoted in it.
I dont spend much time with you guys. And is hardly around with the clique.
I certainly miss all the times we get to seat down, lunch-ed and crap together.
Feeling pretty drifted away from the clique, sorry for not putting in extra effort to meet up with you guys more often.
Sometimes I'm thinking I might just run out of things to talk with you all.
And being in different class makes things a little worst.
Certainly upset with myself..
Cause I want to be part of you guys once again.
Sorry for my MIA-ing.

Main comm wannabe?
I'm having serious doubt on everything.
I'm losing time for myself, family... certainly my friends....

Take care humans..

liwei

2007-05-03T09:58:00.000+08:00

hello everyone haha its Fpath again.this explains the sudden post.my group is done with the discussion but the rest are not done yet.see la my group is very efficient haha.
anyway i did my biochem tutorial last night! am i hardworking or what. haha i can do it because Aili and I went through it with Caroline in school.hoho. anyway i just realised yesterday that i dont understand anything about biochem la wth!haha so Caroline taught me as usual..haha
so my granparents and my father came back from HongKong yest.haha my grandpapa looks well ah but theyre going to the hospital this morning to do some check up.then my aunty also came last night from Indo to take care of my granpa.so yess. nothing much happened. i've been playing maple every night because of 2x exp.i have to stop now because i already skip 2 lectures in 2 weeks.!!! wth.
okay la Ms hor's going to lock up already

Gracecia

2007-04-30T17:00:00.000+08:00

haha FPath is damn lame.we're having fpath now.haha i mean caroline, aili and me! we keep on talking craps on msn instead of listening to her.haha.only aili is listening. she's crazy
hahahaha ok this is damn lame bye everyone

Gracecia

2007-04-30T00:27:00.000+08:00

ENJOY. SO CUTE. : )

keep smiling everyone. even though it's not easy.

-Aili

2007-04-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

went my cousin's 21st b'day celebration with my bro today. 21st le leh...adult le. everyone r growing up...mine will be like in 3yrs time. and tt's fast ok.

so me and my bro went 2 buy his present then head 2 his house. b4 going 2 his house, we went back 2 our old house. cuz he lives in yishun which is my hometown too. hahaha. we walked thru those places we used 2 go, e coffee shops, those shophouses, e mini market where i always get free food : ) , e swimming pool which is juz downstairs of my old house and e way we goes 2 sch during pri sch. e smell of those shops could nv be found in sengkang. (it's not smelly lah) hahaha. me and my bro will like talk abt wat we used 2 do @ those places. oh..MEMORIES. lots and lots of them. i got so excited when i see them. : ) then we went up our old house. e place where i grow up, where i spent my 10yrs of life. then we visited our old neighbour. this Ah Xiu auntie...haha. and she doesn't rmb me! but she rmb my bro. : ( haha. she still ask my bro : "ur galfren arh?" lol. oh...sengkang is juz so different frm yishun.

after e tour of memories, we finally head 2 my cousin's house. ate and chatted there. my cousin invited his frens too and i'm like e only teenage gal there. . .so weird. but still ok lah. got my aunt and e kids who my aunt babysit. they r cute. : )

sch tml again. but it's a relieve noeing tue is a public holiday. and i wanna work! but my boss called me 2 go work tml. -.-''' i got sch lah. ask him tue lah then he say nvm. . . : ( hope he call me again. hahaha.

alrite. got 2 go do my csas hw le. sian-ed.
cya.

-Aili

2007-04-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

Today is not my day. (Nothing ever is)

Everything got seriously screwed up.

I hate to believe it but life is becoming a chore. Heck, I don't even know what I want anymore.

Okay, the archives are up.
Cya.

2007-04-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

everything is so NOT to my favour today. darn. early in the morning, woke up and found out i've got rash. yes. it's back in action again, exactly like how it was before. damn. i hate it. so darn itchy, till now i'm still itching. crap! and because of this, i cant go for the canoe slection. cant touch water. here, i really have to apologise to wei juan. SORRY! i know you are really keen in this sport. i'm really sorry k.

then, in the afternoon, the rash got better. so i reckon i could go out. well.. in the end i went out with my sis. and guess what?? before we went out, she accidentally dropped my watch on the ground. sharks! and it stopped moving for a while. but then it started working again. but! damn. the four buttons became useless. cant function. i was really sad then. spoilt. i cried.. you ppl must be thinking: "huh? what's there to be upset and even cry about?? it's just a watch after all." but no! it meant quite alot to me. it was a watch that i bought it with my first pay at metro. there's 20% discount somemore. freak. am really sad.

then, we went out. saw many things that i wanted. but i'm broke. cant buy. i'm really broke. penniless. like a pauper. and i hate this situation i'm in lots. with no money, you get nothing. while shopping, my rash got worse, then it got better and then worse, and then better again. this is so damn irritating can. visited my cousin at work and found out that he's knocking off soon. but he's going pool with his gf and friends after that. we tagged along after permission granted. went parkwayp. went gary's workplace first before we headed off to play pool. after an hour or so, we ended game and he sent me and my sis home, while my cousin sent his gf home.

we took bus 36, missed the next stop where we HAVE TO alight in order to change to bus 40 to go home. and so, in bus 36, we went all the way to suntec. and from there, we took cab home. he paid for it and also ended going home late. i felt really bad. me and my retardness, dumbness, really brings nothing but misfortunes to ppl. hate it. i'm sorry.

khim

2007-04-28T02:09:00.000+08:00

you know when i was in sec 3 we had this adam khoo camp and one of the instructor tell us about his aunty.about how his aunty had cancer and after she went for operation the doctor just found out that her blood can't clot properly and so she died because the blood just keep on coming out as they refuse to clot.so he said to us whenever we want to go for operation make sure that we do some full body check up so that we'll know whether everything is okay for the operation or not.you know like your damn blood can clot or not.

so when i was in sec 4..my grandmama got cancer and nobody told me about it.i only know about it on the day of her operation.to be exact after the damn operation ended then i knew about it. i guess everybody know about it before hand and i only knew after she went for operation and nobody bothers to tell me about it.i mean its like wtf right.so anyway..a few days after the operation my grandmama got some internal bleeding and so the doctor did some kind of operation again on her.after the operation her blood refused to clot and they just keep on coming out of like everywhere.like they just came out from every hole like seriously.so then she died because of that.okay i'm not so sure how these things happen.i mean like the sequence of these things but i'm sure that she died because the blood just kept on coming out.so i guess she didnt check whether her blood can clot or not or whatever and because nobody told me about this i didnt tell them about the stupid possibility that he blood might not clot or whatsoever.i kinda blame myself for this cause i usually dont really care about anything.like for example i dont bother to ask or whatever shit.but when i think about it they should have told me about this right?i mean its like cancer.its a damn big thing i guess?and nobody bother to tell me about my grandma's condition?they just assumed that i know it when nobody told me about it?

so today i went back and my mom told me that my grandpapa is in the hospital and he was in a coma(how the hell do you spell it?) since 5 am to 3 pm.she knew it since like in the morning?but she never tell me about it.AGAIN.i mean its like hello? i'm supposed to know about this right!?i mean i mean argh shit i'm so frustrated.why didnt she tell me about it?maybe she forget to tell me.but well.wtf! i'm so angry because well. i dont know.i'm just so angry because she didnt tell me earlier you know.it's somehow the same as my gradma's cancer.you know it's like after her death i kept on dreaming of her for a few weeks i think.and in it she's like always angry at me.and that's very disturbing you see.

but well.my grandpapa is awake now and he's okay.i think.so i'm glad.

yeah i just have to vent my frustration here because i dont think i can say this kind of thing out loud to anybody because i'll just cry.so yeah..

anyway liwei the pictures damn ugly la walao.HAHa.

Gracecia

2007-04-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

Looking through all my photos collection and I found some really nice one ya! The Gracecia photo collection. AND finally I can post pictures on blogs.. I just love this girl.. *smile*

liwei ((:*

2007-04-26T13:54:00.000+08:00

haha...alrite, here 2 post. haha.

sch started. and it's 1st wk of yr2. timetable ain't nice. 3days of 8am lesson.! sch ain't as fun as b4. although it hasn't been fun. haha..but as compared 2 this yr, yr1 was @ least better. especially tutorial. not use being not in e same class as e other AF13 peeps. lessons are more quiet now. lacking of AF13 spirit. luckily we r allowed 2 grp ourselves 4 csas. but. i'm alone 4 e FPATH grping. hope things will turn out fine bah. this online thingy sounds complicated. even though i've experienced e-learning in food hygiene.

i miss AF13 too. : (

khim, my sis is like tt too. and there's nth my family can do either. not 2 mention us. our age gap is too small le, so it's kinda hard 2 gain respect frm them. even though they call us 'jie'.. haha. but sometimes my sis is a nice person too. only sometimes ya. haha.

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here's some creative fingers.hahaha.

CAROLINE'S version. lol.

humans r weird beings

-Aili

2007-04-26T11:56:00.000+08:00

Haha nobody bother to update anymore.i knew someday this will happen!
ok i'm sick of school and its only the third day of school? but there's no school today so i'm kinda happy.meeting jeffrey later hahaha.so yea my aims for this sem are :
1.be ever tutors/lectures pet.i failed last sem because i'm not ms chew's pet last sem so i must work harder this time round.
2.increase my GPA LAA.cannot stand it i'm so stupid.

anywayy. no.1 is just a joke la.i'm not so crazy to try to be everyone's pet because its stupid.HAHA so yes. saw my new class on tuesday during csas. i think...my new class is... i dont know. haha there's a few irritating people i guess?actually i dont know because i havent even talk to them.haha but well..by their appearance..they look kind of..irritating,haha.
but there's this one pretty girl in my class la.she's so pretty i'm so jealouss.

been playing maple story every night haha it's very unhealhty because i'm still in the holiday mood ah.damn it.

sigh sigh i miss AF13 lah how.

okay i'm going to shit now.
everyone please update

Gracecia

2007-04-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

LALALA..
BEEN MISSING FOR QUITE A WHILE.HEHZ.
U GUYS HAVE JUST STARTED SKOOL.
AND I JUST STARTED WERK.
OK....
WERK IS FOR 6 DAYS ONLY LARGH.
AND I JUST ENDED MY THIRD DAY.
SO,EVERYDAY IS FROM AROUND 10 AM TO 11 AT NITE.
ITS NIKE END OF SEASON SALE AT SUNTEC.HEHZ.

FIRST DAY WAS TIRED LIKE _____.
COS THE CROWD WAS NEVER ENDING.
MY JOB IS MAINLY FINDING THE CUSTOMERS SHOE SIZE.
HANG CLOTHES, FOLD CLOTHES.
MAY SOUND EASY.
BUT WHO LIKE TO STAND FOR MORE THAN 10 HOURS.
WITH CROWD.
FEET PAIN PAIN PAIN.

YOU'LL FIND DIFFERENT TYPE OF PEOPLE WHEN YOU WORK.
E.G : GAY BROTHERS-REACHING 40 YRS OLD.
A 24 & 25 YRS OLD GIRL COUPLE, BUT THEY DONT LOOK LIKE 24 OR 25.
THE BOOCH OR BUTCH [WAHTEVER U SPELL IT] IS 25.
THATS WAHT SHE SAID.
BUT SHE DUN LOOK LIKE 25.. NOT EVEN 20.
THESE PEOPLE ARE WEIRD BUT FRIENDLY LARGH...
GOT ARROGANT AFRICAN-AMERICAN.
THESE ARE THE WORKERS LARGH.

THE CUSTOMERS.
I THINK ITS STANDARD TO HAVE THE UNDERSTANDING CUSTOMERS,
AND THE VERY NOT UNDERSTANDING CUSTOMERS.
WHICH I FEEL LIKE SMACKING WITH THE SHOE THEY ASK FOR.

SO..
YAH.
1ST DAY WAS TIRED.
2ND DAY SHITTY.
TODAY WAS GREAT.
LOOKING FORWARD TO TOMORROW.HEHZ.

HARPPY SKOOLIN PEOPLE.
WHILE IM STILL PRAYING TO PASS THE NAFA [ NOT NAPFA] TEST.

ADIOS.
Y. WHO ELSE

2007-04-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

i'm angry. angry with my sisters. they just dont listen! vulgarities, attitudes, disrespects. damn. getting from bad to worse each day. they are not letting my mum off as well. now she's upset. i can understand. imagine your children becoming like that and there's nothing you can do to change them. with all the other problems adding on to it as well. in fact my dad's one of the prob. if i were her, i'd be really upset. there was once she said she'd leave eventually one day when she couldn't take it anymore. being the eldest daughter, i'm lost. i dunno what to do. i'm not good at consoling others, not good at talking. i'm such a failure huh. yeah. thats what i think so. a failure am i. for now, all i know and can do is to pray and hope everything will be fine soon.

khim

2007-04-22T02:28:00.000+08:00

everything's so wrong today. everything. since morning. didnt get to play final clash. kena scolded, but that person apologised, so it's ok. then.. i realised i forgot to bring something. went to bathe, the door cant lock. thought things would turn out better later at the night. but no.

was really pissed today, with my coughing non stop. non stop ok. kept coughing like nobody's business. damn irritating. damn. might as well just cough to death. damn! whatever la!! damn pissed. it just cant get well.

was happily getting something earlier but then.. nvm.

was disappointed too. shant talk about it.

whats worse? i know i had to control myself. cant lose temper on somebody else. cos it's not their fault. so i had to act as if there's nothing wrong. smiled. it doesnt feel good at all.

just what the hell is wrong with everything today.

2007-04-22T01:01:00.000+08:00

SCH'S STARTING!!! SCH'S STARTING!!! ARGH!!! hahahaha...omg. going back 2 sch life. and it's yr2! unbelievable. one yr juz passed like tt.

my holiday de last sat was spent slacking @ hm. and my holiday de last sun will be working. haiz haiz haiz...juz feel like haiz-ing.hahaha.

juz remembered smth...AF13 was and is e 'BEST CARE GROUP' haha...

alrite, see u guys in sch le arh. : )

i miss renci. anyone keen 2 go with me? : )

-Aili

2007-04-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

argh!! know what?? i went home from school after regatta and stuff ytd and slept without bathing and with my contacts on!! wah lucky my contacts are still in place ah.. haha. if not i'd have been blind by now. haha

ytd was fun! haha i was given the chance to take part in the dragon boat. a last minute recruitment though. didnt had practice first beforehand. so i wonder if it was my fault and the reason why we couldnt perform well and got a fourth place instead. was really sad then. but still, i enjoyed it, it was quite fun yar. (:

also also, ytd was the last day of week 0, i was really touched when my class cheered, "we love weikhim! we love weikhim!" it was then that i realised that though i was really tired the past few days, it was after all, worth it. (:

hmmm.. school's starting as soon as next week!! haha. no new clothes for me!! no time to buy ahh! arghh. so people, i'd have to apologise if i wear the same old clothes i wore to school before the hols. lol

alright.. i'll see you people in school next week then! take care people! (:

khimmm

2007-04-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

today was a troublesome day @ work...haha. they find me back 4 work on such day... it's wat 'environment day' and donation of 10cents is require 4 one plastics bag otherwise 95cents 4 a reusable bag. so have 2 tell every customers...

"sir/ma'am, do u need a bag?" (if yes,) "u will have donate 10cents 4 one plastics bag. otherwise, u could buy our recycable bag @ 95cents" . (nod their head) "so u would like 2 donate 10cents 4 one plastics bag?" . . . . . . . . .

i said this 2 almost every customers and some need repeat. oh...torture 4 my throat. noe my voice isn't loud, so i have 2 raise my voice a bit. luckily no sore throat. hahaha.this will happen on every 1st wed of e month...i don noe abt other markets but tt's 4 carrefour. haha. then this carrefour de cashier auntie told me, next time don come work on those days. hahahaha.

here's smth i very very very bu shuang. have 2 let out my anger. bear with it.hahaha...my this irritating uncle. he doesn't work but he's rich. he bring his camera ard. wherever he goes. so we went sao-mu last sunday. he brought his camera along -.- . . . wat he wan? omg. he took photo of e 'tomb'(don noe wat's it called.haha...) he took photos of us. and he said 4 memorial. . .HEY! memorial 4 this event??? i was firmed on not allowing him 2 take any photos of me. showed him very bu shuang de face. hahaha. he took photos of everyone in his house on chinese new yr too. he do close-up on everyone. then...he put it on e large tv of his...showing 2 everyone. hao lian lah. rich also don need like tt rite. and he's not young can. maybe 50 le loh.
think of him jiu angry. sickening. say me no manners or wat. but he's really sickening. hahaha.

alrite. out tml . : )

did i think too much?

-Aili

2007-04-16T03:59:00.000+08:00

finally i'm back from FO. super tiring. six days straight can really kill. not enough sleep. so i actually woke up at two this afternoon. i lost my voice. and it's really irritating for not being able to talk or rather make a sound. when you actually have to keep repeating what you wanted to say in whispers. and i'm sure people are irritated at that too, as in when they are not able to know what you're trying to express. it can really get very annoying right?? hahah.

alright. it's late. i got to turn in. will be reporting to school in the morning at 10.

and to end this post off, i would like to say, being the first time as a GL, and having being praised by the HGL and FA, i'm really proud of myself. hahah. pardon me for not being humble. but i just have to say that cos that was how i felt. i will miss Scythia, every single one of them who are involved. (:

a zillion sorries to you.

khim(:

2007-04-14T17:57:00.000+08:00

Heyz..

Sorry ya. COuldnt make it for e zoo outing. I wanted to go actually. BUt i had to werk in the morning. So, looking forward to e next outing ya. Hopefully i can make it. If not, then its too bad. Sigh. Im feeling depressed nowadays. Sigh. Lack of self-esteem i guess. But nvm. Take care!

-=Faiz=-

Journey 2 e ZOO.

2007-04-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired due 2 e only 3hrs plus slp last nite and e work. . .

alrite, we finally went 2 e zoo. haha.
saw lots of animal...haha..(of cuz. cuz it's zoo rite.hahaha). spirit was low in e morning cuz everyone was tired. but e atmosphere got better after e suan-ing of jiahui starts. lol. poor jiahui, but we meant nth lah hor.hahaha. then it rain. sian-ed loh. some places was under renovation so didn't get 2 see some of e animals. it's happy 2 see all e animals. lazy 2 upload e photos lah. haha. but almost everyone took photos so no need 2 upload lah. and i lost my pig in e zoo. muz have go find its fren le lah..haha.

after tt went ps 4 dinner and went hm. then fall aslp on e sofa. haha.
oh, have 2 get my contact lens b4 sch starts. look 4ward 2 our next outing ya. : )

[caroline, juan, jiahui, wilson and pg]
Thankx 4 making this outing possible ya : ) although it wasn't really successful, but it didn't fail too rite. hahaha. it's fun going out with u guys.
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p.s.: gracecia, it's fine lah. since u r organising e next outing. muahaha.
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-Aili

2007-04-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

Aili i'm sorryyyyyyyyyy =(
okay because i owe this to aili..i'm organising the next outing!
dates not cofirmed yet so ya anywayy.
so long never blog!
yesterday i peeled 6 kg of prawns!beat that!haha no la actually my mom peeled too and she's the real prawns peeler queen lah!she's damn crazy so fast you know.it felt like amazing race i tell you haha.maybe if she joined amazing race she will win the prawn peeling section man!
then my mom bought chickens for my bro's birthday party.it's on next sunday.anybody want to come?haha so anyway we cleaned the chicks and i performed liposuction on them haha!so i was cleaning them and i touched smth that somehow looked like anus.haha so i asked my grandmama what is that.so i was like whats this ah? the she was like oh..that one is the lan jiao(dick) loh! the i was like what the freak! haha after that she laughed and say no la i dont know whats that.hahaha

anyway i'm really angry with my sister.younger sister. she's really stupid.i mean like she wants ipod.it's expensive la obviously!so we keep on asking her like questions like like why she wants it so much and all that.so my eldest sis asked her to buy creative,its 8 gb and its cheaper/abt the same price as ipod 4gb.but she dont want and my father is irritating because he spoilt her!
i keep on asking her so that somehow she'll realise that its expensive and its totally unneccesary to buy it.so anyway she's somehow angry because we dont let her but it!wtf!!!! i'm so so angry.really..she's already 15 and why she still can't think?my father spoilt her and so i'm angry with him also.i mean ok i know la its his money but still!ah whatever.ok thats it i guess.

Graceciaa

2007-04-12T16:02:00.001+08:00

YO! ppl. hahaha.

remember tml's zoo outing ya. 9am @ amk int. if possible bring an umbrella along ya. : )

oh yah, e confirmed list of ppl going r:
caroline . juan . jiahui . mai . gracecia . pg and wilson (both most probably) & of cuz me! hahaha.

omg, it's downpouring and i'm going work soon. 4got tml need 2 wake up early...haha...only have a few hrs of slp tonite le...but nvm lah. since we r going 2 e zoo! muahaha.

see u ppl tml ya : )

-Aili.