you know when i was in sec 3 we had this adam khoo camp and one of the instructor tell us about his aunty.about how his aunty had cancer and after she went for operation the doctor just found out that her blood can't clot properly and so she died because the blood just keep on coming out as they refuse to clot.so he said to us whenever we want to go for operation make sure that we do some full body check up so that we'll know whether everything is okay for the operation or not.you know like your damn blood can clot or not.so when i was in sec 4..my grandmama got cancer and nobody told me about it.i only know about it on the day of her operation.to be exact after the damn operation ended then i knew about it. i guess everybody know about it before hand and i only knew after she went for operation and nobody bothers to tell me about it.i mean its like wtf right.so anyway..a few days after the operation my grandmama got some internal bleeding and so the doctor did some kind of operation again on her.after the operation her blood refused to clot and they just keep on coming out of like everywhere.like they just came out from every hole like seriously.so then she died because of that.okay i'm not so sure how these things happen.i mean like the sequence of these things but i'm sure that she died because the blood just kept on coming out.so i guess she didnt check whether her blood can clot or not or whatever and because nobody told me about this i didnt tell them about the stupid possibility that he blood might not clot or whatsoever.i kinda blame myself for this cause i usually dont really care about anything.like for example i dont bother to ask or whatever shit.but when i think about it they should have told me about this right?i mean its like cancer.its a damn big thing i guess?and nobody bother to tell me about my grandma's condition?they just assumed that i know it when nobody told me about it?
so today i went back and my mom told me that my grandpapa is in the hospital and he was in a coma(how the hell do you spell it?) since 5 am to 3 pm.she knew it since like in the morning?but she never tell me about it.AGAIN.i mean its like hello? i'm supposed to know about this right!?i mean i mean argh shit i'm so frustrated.why didnt she tell me about it?maybe she forget to tell me.but well.wtf! i'm so angry because well. i dont know.i'm just so angry because she didnt tell me earlier you know.it's somehow the same as my gradma's cancer.you know it's like after her death i kept on dreaming of her for a few weeks i think.and in it she's like always angry at me.and that's very disturbing you see.
but well.my grandpapa is awake now and he's okay.i think.so i'm glad.
yeah i just have to vent my frustration here because i dont think i can say this kind of thing out loud to anybody because i'll just cry.so yeah..
anyway liwei the pictures damn ugly la walao.HAHa.
Gracecia
