Wednesday, January 17, 2007
SO....I THINK ITS ABOUT 3 TIMES ALREADY.YOU KNOW... MAKE A FOOL OF MYSELF.U GUYZ MUST BE WONDERING, " WTF WTH IS WRONG WIT HER?"OK. U GUYZ SHOULD ALREADY KNOW BY NOW HOW MUCH I HATE TP.SO.I ENDURED.ENDURE ENDURE TILL I HAVE TO LET IT ALL OUT BY WHAT?CRYING.OH.SO GOOD.TEARS CAN MEAN SADNESS, HAPPINESS OR EVEN FRUSTRATED-NESS[ if there is such a word]IT CAN MEAN ANYTHING LARH.MINE JUST NOW WAS FRUST.SKOOL WAS ONE THING.BUT THAT WASNT THE MAIN REASON COZ ILL BE GETTING OUT OF TP ANYWAY.I FEEL SO LEFT OUT OR SORT OF EMPTY SOMETIMES EVEN THOUGH THERE'S LIKE 7 OR MAYBE NOW 11 PPL IN OUR CLIQ. K. IM SORRY. IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF U GUYZ.ITS JUST ME.
IM THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO'S VERY SELF-CONSCIOUS.MOST OF THE TIME, I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT ME.I WILL ACTUALLY FEEL THAT PEOPLE HATE ME.I WILL ALWAYS FEEL USELESS.ITS BEEN LIKE THIS SINCE PRI SCH.PEOPLE ARE AVOIDING ME COZ IM AVOIDING THEM.PEOPLE TALK TO ME THEN I TALK TO PEOPLE.TAHTS WHYSOME PPL THINK TAHT IM "ACTION".THIS IS THE BIGGEST CLIQ SO FAR AND I THANK GOD THAT I STILL HAVE FRIENDS.COZ ITS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO HAVE FRIENDS.YES. IM NOT FRIENDLY.WORST THING OF ALL,I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT DEATH.HAH. YARH. GUESS IM CRAZY THEN.I REALLY HAVE PROBLEM WITH MY MOOD.BUT THINGS ARE DIFFERENT WHEN IM AT HOME.SOOO...THE PROBLEM IS ME.SERIOSLY.IT MAY BE SMALL ISSUE TO U GUYS, BUT NOT TO ME.I REALLY DUN WANNA GO SKOOL FOR NOW.IM SO EMBARASSED.AND I DUN WANT TO BE THE PERSON WHO KNOWS NOTHING IN THAT SKOOL.ITS NOT THAT I DUN WANA SKOOL ANYMORE.ITS JUST THE LOST OF INTEREST IN THE COURSE.I ACTUALLY WENT TO CHANGI AIRPORT ALONE JUST NOW TO DE-STRESS.MAYBE THIS WEEK YOU WONT BE SEE-ING ME AGAIN.IF YOU STILL SEE, THEN I WAS FORCED.HAIZ.THIS IS JUST MENTAL..
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